spaceid,
Perhaps you are just thinking about this wrong. You are looking at your past as a reference that you have always felt this or been this. And you are judging your current feelings of finally thinking about an option as, oh this will be the only time.

Madisgrams post is a very good post to consider. But you may have just not been ready to experience a relationship in the past, had other priorities and didn't really care. This is not abnormal for you. And please do not judge yourself by what others do or the fact that others do have relationships already all around you. Did you ever think that your lack of need was a plus? After all you are only 28 and up to this point you were involved educating yourself and taking care of your own needs, that is pretty healthy in my opinion. While perhaps other people around you just felt incomplete without having a partner, that doesn't mean that is the case with you, and it hasn't been as you state.

And some of your emotions are probably a little bit delayed as others often have these feelings much earlier than you have. So you do have to be fair to yourself and realize that we are all unique and just because you have never been overconcerned about having a relationship doesn't mean there is something wrong with you. And ofcourse your going to experience the uncertainty all people experience when addressing any relationship that may be considered a lasting partnership. Please don't obsess about it, it is just a beginning of having a feeling of thinking about having a partner and even taking a few steps and all the feelings you have about that are normal to some extent. So all those feelings of fear and running or being uncertain are very common. What you have to think about while reading madisgrams post is what it means and how to sit and really look at it and think about it. Don't just run from yourself or your feelings, stop and understand them.

Open Eyes