I feel like this is the story of my life. I work my *** off and someone else beats me at something. I know I shouldn't be resentful but I am to an extent. I work so hard and see these kids that do nothing and their parents pay their way through college. Yet I'm here working 50 hrs a week through my BS. Things like that...

Well this girl (she is in my lab) beat me out on an outstanding masters student award. I hold 2 officer positions in our club (secretary and outreach coordinator) so I work closely with schools in the area to do outreach with kids and at the farmers market etc... I have gotten 1 B since I have been here, the rest are A's. I am on our "trivia" team at our national meeting as well as our debate team. I have TAed a class and got awesome remarks from both students and the prof. I had over 2.5 years of lab/field experience in science before coming here.

This girl....never shows up to our lab. She admitted to me that she just started writing her thesis like 3 mos ago (she was supposed to be finished in May). She never participates in any outreach AT ALL. She got a B in the class our major adviser taught!!!! (as well as a few others). She has no teaching experience, no publications, no previous experience.

I DON'T GET IT! Why?! How hard do I have to work to get some damn recognition?! Even if I never put my name in the ring, the fact that she is prob the least productive person in the dept.....ANYONE else deserves it over her. I can't explain how hurt/sad/angry/upset I am right now. I HATE OFFICE POLITICS!