Therapy, 5 cents: are you close to your parents? ie have a warm affectionate relationship with them? I always viewed my mother as Marilyn Monroe - beautiful but unavailable. I thought that's how mothers were supposed to be. For a while there, I thought I was the only person who could help Michael Jackson, and I never even saw him. But meeting celebrities has been a significant (though not large) part of my life, and this is a common reaction to parental rejection, I think I read somewhere.
Also, I knew it wasn't really safe to get close to my dad or really any of the many aunts and uncles. Their touch, their fingers digging into my sides, their leers, all felt creepy. I KNEW that any affection towards children was suspect. I don't think you're a pedophile. I think you might be unconsciously acting out other people's unsafe feelings towards you, as I was and discussed with my Ts for a long time. We can be like tofu, bland and easily able to absorb other flavors. Is it lunchtime?

I commend you for keeping up with current trends in music, too many of us get stuck at what we liked by early 20's and stop there!