Wow what a rough day , or I should say week... Started out seeing my Pdoc Monday and he upped my Seraquel to 400mg at nite.. SO im still getting used to the increased dose ( ugh) .

Today I saw my Therapist .. He really pushes me hard to try and get me to find " good things" in myself, I have pretty much no self worth and I feel like a burden so his homework he gave me last week for to find the good in me.. well I honestly couldnt find any ,, any that I could actually truly believe in. So I felt like even a bigger failure** sigh**
So My therapist and I agreed to do some more Hypnotherapy, working mainly on me being able to see the positive in myself not just the negative. ... I do feel great after a session I feel moe positive but the strugggle for me is to apply it daily and actually beleive in it.

I know that coming to terms with this illness and feeling better isnt going to happen overnite but it sure would be nice to actually start seeing a differance instead of more problems and isssues on top of more.

Wishing everyone some peace ~