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Originally Posted by Elana05
I don't even know how I feel today.
I feel sad that I was let go from my job and it didn't work out.
I put so much time into learning everything there.
What was it for? I don't even know.
Now I am back to cleaning the apartment.
We have so much stuff and I wish my partner could get rid of some of her stuff. I clean and tidy and it just gets dirty again.
I know, that's how it works.
I guess I just feel like nothing else in my life is tidy right now. I at least wish the apartment could be organized and fresh. But there is so much to do and I feel sad and overwhelmed doing it on my own while she is at work.
And I am jealous that she is at work.
I can never get my life together.
At least I am good at cleaning and keeping the house together.
I just feel flat today.
What the *** does any of it matter?
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I am sending BIG HUGS your way! I hate it when I feel like that, seems like a lot lately. It matters because you care, you are a good person . I can tell by your posts you care. You will find another job. I believe everything happens for a reason, That job was just not meant to be. Your apartment being a mess might be making u feel more out of control of your life. Have faith in yourself! It will all work out.
