My name is Rebbecca and I am 31 years old. I was diagnosed Bipolar type I about 6 years ago. I lost a nine year relationship recently from the effects of my Bipolar and the strain it put on the relationship. I am at a loss most days. I hit mania often and stay in it longer than ever now. I completely try to single handeldly try to destroy everything good and positive in my life. I don't mean to do it, it happens though. I am here for some help and support. I feel completely alone in this. Sometimes I look around and see everyone else's life going well and look at mine, and ask what happened. I am hoping to find positive things here. I want to learn and understand this disorder better.