i went from liveing without crying to crying in 1 night i cant take this anymore in 41 turning 90 with this stupid rapid cycling bipolar disorder i typt this hudge post on what happend to me & poof it disaperd i hate myself i cant even spell right how much doese a person have to take before it fair to say enough is enough i have 2 boys & that makes me stuck on this earth till my end is here when ever that may be probably a long time unfort???? i hate it i try & try & its not good enough my brain hates me & theres nothing i can do about it ! i think im in hell it shure feels that way !