i cant cope no more!

i went from liveing without crying to crying in 1 night i cant take this anymore in 41 turning 90 with this stupid rapid cycling bipolar disorder i typt this hudge post on what happend to me & poof it disaperd i hate myself i cant even spell right how much doese a person have to take before it fair to say enough is enough i have 2 boys & that makes me stuck on this earth till my end is here when ever that may be probably a long time unfort???? i hate it i try & try & its not good enough my brain hates me & theres nothing i can do about it ! i think im in hell it shure feels that way !

(((((moonbeam))))
Hang in there. Breathe.
Look at the moon, and breathe.

I know, I hate it when type a long post and you try to submit it and it goes to ask you to re-login, and your whole hour's works is GONE. I learned to highlight whole thing and Ctrl-C (or apple-C if you're on Mac) before getting near that submit or preview key, and still I manage to wipe it out occasionally by some way where a backspace backs up the browser page. GRRRRR!

Type your post in Notepad, that is safest, then copy/paste.

Do you have help. A therapist? Are you taking any drugs - perhaps they need to be changed.

Hugs
sun

OMG, you and I must be twins. I have posted things similar to EVERYTHING you just said. I wish they had a place for people like us to get together; however, that may not work out well.

Anywho, I just wanted let you know that your words made me type this because you just basically described me.