Ditto ~ la bella vita!

That mentality is due to my self-hatred, deeply ingrained in my psyche. Getting around my negative thoughts and patterns of thinking isn't easy or overnight.

It takes time and effort to understand what has brought your self-image down so low! Then, accepting these negative thoughts and beginning to challenge the process. That's taken me 2 years to begin ~ and I'm just now deciding that it's okay to not automatically turn down compliments. I feel like a jerk every time my bf compliments my beauty or body (and want to hurt myself), but I don't have to do what I am tempted to do.

It takes time. I'm still anxious to see if some form of self-love kicks in. I'm automatically negative. Wouldn't mind dying a miserable death, in a second-person sort of way?? But I won't plan and impose it upon myself either. Don't know if that makes sense to you at all. Just my thought process...