I was doing fairly well with the anti psychotics making me gain a fair bit. I was even almost accepting it. The last two weeks tho I've been watching the weight melt off and watching my attitude reverse back to my anorexic thoughts. I don't know how to do it. I'll be starting therapy soon I think, wait list. But the closer it comes the more I feel the need to lose. Self defeating I don't know. Just wanted to share. I am pretty confused. Someday I cannot remember why I am going to be getting therapy in the first place.