Hi Vertigo,
I'm so sorry to hear you have been going through a tough time.
I have often heard others describe depression this way. Someone once described to me a feeling of having cotton in their ears so that everything seemed tinny, distant and hard to hear.
For me, the feeling of depression at its worst is of having a broken heart, but I have anxiety too that resonates in my chest.
Sending supportive thoughts your way.
Has medication been able to help at all?
Elana