Hi Thanks for ur reply. Thing is i am aware of all this. I did enroll in further studies. Thing is somehow though i was very cautious abt this i got too involved in this. And now i realize tht though bein so confident person I have become low on self esteem, i cant sleep widout pills. If i don take em i get suicidal thoughts i go out to feel better i dont. I find myself angry all the time. I have lost faith in everything somehow. And cant see anything further. What should i do? Any immediate relief answer u have PLease help me.