I'm sorry you're grief is still strong ((lizardlady)). I was touched reading how you feel about your mom. She must have been a great lady and the fact you had/still have so much love for her, means you're a deeply caring person. This is a hard time for you and stress just makes the Fibromyalgia worse. This means you need to be kind to yourself.

Since your mom was such a great lady - instead of feeling only sadness...think of how she was and honor her life. I bet she would want you to live well and flourish. I noticed a changes these last few years with funerals - some are going the celebration of life route. Recognizing the sadness but also praising that person and their accomplishments. Maybe you can plant a tree or make a shadow box with her special trinkits. Its a loss she's not still here, but think about how much she gave you. Sending positive vibes during this difficult time.