Hi Rainbow,

Yes, I'm trying to trust my memories. I just don't want to "fill in the blanks." I mean i DO want to know the whole story because i think maybe then i could process it and be done with it. But I DONT want to know for fear it will be too much to handle. So i just want to try to process what i DO remember -- and the feelings about what is fuzzy -- if there's a way to do that.

I don't know why i called it ego states. I think of it as the same thing as IFS -- although maybe there are some differences??