(((((((anika))))))) Very good choice on the yoga before this weekend visit. There is nothing to be ashamed of about crying, where ever it is.
Your work on yourself over the past 6 months is something to be proud of.

Maybe your mom picked up on you having alittle more self-confidence.
You say the past 6 months have been very difficult, up & down. I don't know your past with her, sounds tramatic.

I'm sure she loves you, as much as she's able to, or knows how to.
Everybody needs a momma or a mother figure for support.
Forgiving isn't easy but possible, with or without her being there for you.

Hang in there & take care of YOU!