My goal is to trust my therapist. Like, seriously trust him. I want talk to my T about my feelings and emotions regarding my issues. I'm OK talking about my issues, but I am very avoidant of the feelings associated with them. I want to be able to talk about them, accept them for what they are, not feel guilty about them, and FEEL my way through the actual thought. So, I guess that means "processing" them properly?

I'm not even close to the vicinity of reaching that goal yet. Not by a long shot.