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Originally Posted by beautiful.mess
My goal is to trust my therapist. Like, seriously trust him. I want talk to my T about my feelings and emotions regarding my issues. I'm OK talking about my issues, but I am very avoidant of the feelings associated with them. I want to be able to talk about them, accept them for what they are, not feel guilty about them, and FEEL my way through the actual thought. So, I guess that means "processing" them properly?
I'm not even close to the vicinity of reaching that goal yet. Not by a long shot.  |
This could be me! I can talk about most stuff outside of session to friends if I need but it's as if I'm talking about someone else. I can't seem to get through this stupid brick wall I've put around myself. I'm sure it has served it's purpose previously and protected me quite adequately but now I have the opportunity in T to try and break it down I can't do it. I'm so used to it being there I don't even think I can see over the top of the walls. I know I don't trust T completely and I don't even know why. I keep going though so something in me must feel somewhat safe. It is taking such a long time though.
Nelliecat