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hello T.
When self harming (I used (still do) do it). But not no more.
I feel like its a dissotation from my body. Like my arm is something to to be attacked from within. I prick it, cut it and eat it.
I need to see if my body can attack me from within.
This dissasociation from my body is like feeling like when 'drunk', I feel like I am floating above my body.
This is a false image, its not the way it is. My body is me and I am my body.
I understand the feeling of distance from the self.
The road down self harm is one of isolation, it one of failure and isolation.
I used to cut a lot, I found within cutting my private self.
Out side though I found failure, failure of finding what I was looking 4.
In the end..................through self harm, OK...we find solace and a moment of self.
What is after though.....people who cannot undrstand (thats OK I dont give a fck what people think). Its what we find in our self's.
Loss.
Seperation.
Distance.
If we/you want seperation from the world we love, do what we want to do.
Personlally I want 'Love and aceptance from my world.
I hope this finds you well.
Take good care.
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