I think this is probably the reason behind all of this. I say this because I'm the exact same way. I always think people are lying to me about their feelings, especially in regards to me. This is due to having a father who was a compulsive liar. I could never trust anything that he said which leads me to have very deep-seated trust issues now. I hope things get better for you. I think Sabby's advice is the best advice here.