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This is my first post, but I really need somewhere to vent.

Here is my situation...
I have a bad case of complex PTSD and DID as a result of a really abusive childhood and a few rotten boyfriends. As a result of all the stress I have a poor immune system. I have had an appendectomy, tonsillectomy and ovarian surgery all within the past 1.5 years. My body is tired, and as one could imagine my PTSD and DID is running rampant.

I am a hard worker. I have managed to stay in school and receive a 3.9 GPA. I work my *** off and I am proud of it.

Well I moved to a new city due to some stressful situations and enrolled in a new university that is VERY conservative. Though I have no problem with those who are conservative, I DO have a problem with those who are close minded *** holes.

So about 3 weeks into school I realized my condition had worsened. I was writing stuff backwards, forgetting where I was going, the date etc. My dissociation had gotten incredibly worse due to stress. So I went to a doctor and he began playing with my medication.

Well, we all know how fun that is. I ended up missing about 2 weeks of school. He put me on high dosages of Topamax and as a result it made me lethargic, MORE forgetful, and confused, it gave me diarrhea and made me constipated...etc. Most days I couldn't get out of bed.
Knowing that I had an appointment every two weeks to get my medications checked, I figured he would help me out with the classes that I missed by excusing me for the few days before my appointment.
Well...he decided that he couldn't do that. As a result I had about a week of unaccounted for absences. The one class in particular, Aerobic Walking, I was going to fail in if I didn't turn in an excuse.

So, knowing that I would FAIL IF I DIDN’T turn in a doctor’s excuse and quite possibly FAIL IF I LIED and changed the date...I decided to take a chance and change to excuse to including just one of the unaccounted for missed classes, giving me enough lead way to finish the semester with a barely passing grade in that class.

Meanwhile the doctor managed to fix my medication and get me back to a somewhat working condition. Upon returning to school I gave the fake excuse to my Aerobic Walking instructor and hoped for the best.

Well she didn't buy it and managed to call my doctor and find me guilty of lying. She decided to fail me in the class and treat me like a piece of %#@&#! on the side of the road.

She is dangling the possibility of turning me into the Deans office in front of my face. I could loose this entire semester because of this situation.

To make matters worse I am under a huge amount of stress to finish college as quickly as possible because my dad is a drunk and will quite loose his job with time.

Well I am obviously upset and feel horribly misunderstood. I am not a liar, but she is convinced I am evil. I feel let down by the school and the doctors and most of all I hate my life and myself.

If anyone could add any enlightening comments to this story, I would appreciate it. I really would like to know others opinions. Quite frankly, I am confused as to whether or not to view myself as a liar.

I had to lie to make it sound true.