I saw my therapist weekly for a long while and then all of a sudden we've only been able to see each other twice in the past 12 weeks... I think it's very painful and very challenging. When I saw her last, she was distant and unfamiliar to me. I lied a lot and then told her I wouldn't be coming back for at least 3 weeks. I want to see her regularly but it's uncomfortable and I don't know what the purpose would be anymore. I've gotten a lot harder on myself.