Cutting doesn't have to be inevitable. I don't know how to stop but I think the first step must be to not look as it as though it is going to happen whether we want it too or not. Argh, just thinking about it makes me sick, it is so much easier just not worry about it and let it happen. The struggle against it is so miserable. But we can stop, right? Yes, we can stop. I would say lose yourself in your homework but I know how hard it can be to concentrate when I am obsessing about whether or not I am going to do something. Please try though. Try to make it through tonight safe and sound.
Carrie

PS let us know how your mom is doing. I didn't catch why she was in the hospital. Is it serious?
CK