I hope all will be ok... One thing I did not add to my story earlier was that once I had made up my mind (after deleting my work emails) there was no turning back to me. My son (16 at the time) had not left for school yet and I when he left I just said "bye", nothing else. I didn't want him to be suspicious of anything. Once I had made up my mind nothing mattered, not even my family finding me.
Not saying you will do what I did, not saying you won't be ok, just warning you what the mind can do....basically, the mind can take over your rational thinking.