Ya that is true. I am hoping I will learn to make appropriate choices on how I react to my feelings later on down the track. At the moment its just blinding rage and my only choice is "KILL AND MAIM" or "don't kill and maim" haha. I am trying to stick with the latter. I wish the therapist would have given me some hints as to how to "work on" or "work through" these feelings but she said "only you know how to do that", which I do not. Dictionary.com only gives so much information. But I just keep reminding myself that for 30 seconds of bliss, I would also acquire a lengthy prison sentence and that would definitely not be pretty! Feelings would be the least of my worries in that situation.

That is a good idea Elli-beth, about the journal. I will try it when I wake up and am fresh, and the craving to KILL AND MAIM is not so strong. Thanks!