I wander why I have no confidence or self esteem, I watch others write on here and they do it so perfect, I try to write replies out and I hit the delete button as mine sound so pathetic.I know what I am thinking but I can't put into words.

I look in the mirror even and I hate myself, I am really ugly, I feel lonely, I was told that I am ugly so many times maybe I believe it? I would like friends but I don't go out to make them, I am too shy I don't even know how to start a conversation.

Writting this bit was hard and I doubt it will get replies