So I WANT to contact my T and ask her what to do about this... but I'm trying to handle this situation without her. I'm trying to reach out to other people (here and in RL) so as to not be overly dependent on T. Ok, so here's the situation:

I've been friends with this woman for about 4 months. There are aspects of the friendship I genuinely enjoy. However, she has romantic feelings for me and I do not return them. They make me very, very uncomfortable. She also started contacting me way more than I can handle and she makes comments (about my appearance, etc) that I feel cross the line. Things seem to be escalating. Today, she gave me an extravegant gift for my birthday. The gift is nice and a part of me wants the gift, but I feel uncomfortable accepting it from her. It makes me feel "yucky." However, in the moment, I was unable to say anything but "thank-you." Now, after having more time to think about it, it feels like accepting the gift was the wrong thing to do; part of me feels I should return it to her. However, if I do that, I know I would hurt her feelings. She also told me (during my birthday dinner) that she has a history of suicide attempts and I am her only friend. That made me extremely uncomfortable. It feels like she is guilting me into being her friend-- and it feels as though she thinks I might change my mind and start to see her as more than a friend (if she gives me gifts, does favors for me, etc). I don't want these things, though. And, the more time I spend with her, the more I feel like she is "creepy" and "stalker-ish." On the surface, everything she does seems nice-- gifts, e-mails, get well cards, etc. However, they're too much and they make me uncomfortable. I think I need to cut ties with her in order to protect myself, but I'm worried that if I do cut ties, she's going to have a nervous breakdown and possibly attempt suicide. I don't know what to do. I'm also upset because I don't think it's fair that she's putting me in this position at such a horrible time for me. I'm really sick, the doctors can't figure out what's wrong, and I don't want to spend my birthday and my (too short and too limited) therapy sessions talking about her, as opposed to the things I need to talk about for ME to make ME better. Anyway, I apologize for putting this all out there, but I just needed to share it-- keeping it inside was making me almost physically ill. I'm trying so hard not to contact T! I would feel so pathetic if I had to contact T on my birthday to talk about this situation! I know there probably isn't a "right" answer, I just need support right now. I just need something to hold me over until my next T session! Thank-you!