I fully agree with you, Ygrec23, about accepting our mortality and how serene and even stimulating this can be. But I would like to put forward a distinction between accepting mortality, and accepting the time between now and then (if that distinction is valid). I am not, for example, brooding on my mortality or my demise - not at all. I am brooding on the years between now and then not seeming to me to hold much promise as compared to the years behind me. And 'brooding' is even a strong word, it's just something that seems like a fact to me now, ingrained, I don't much dwell on it like one doesn't dwell on the sky being blue (if we're lucky ).

Don't get me wrong - I don't dispute that any of the above is less pathological I would agree that it's not ideal that I have written off my remaining years and just feel like I have to 'get through it' till I'm done. But I don't feel like my mortality is imminent, if you see what I mean, I do acknowledge there is plenty of time left.

I don't know if I'm making any sense - put it down to me being from the same part of the world as Venus (close enough...)