hey~ i just wanted to check in... its been a crazy couple of days. i thought i was doing good i was getting to sleep at a decent time, eating, going to class, all the 'normal' thing. then sunday i stayed up until like 3 in the morning woke up at 8; not that i really did sleep just that in and out kind of sleep where everything woke me up. thats how its been the last couple of days. I know my suitemate has noticed she keeps checking up on me. I wish she would leave me alone i know that somethings wrong i know i should see the doctor and all that stuff. So i have been trying to keep it all in its hard you know, not to let anyone see the true me..... I feel like i have to be strong around everyone of my friends but really i just want to be alone and not to be bothered. but then if i am alone i get scared to be by myself and so i have to be around my friends. But i also feel like i am just a person standing there like the fifth wheel and all that stuff. I hate being friends with someone but they are not a friend back. so much stuff going on in my head i can barely concentrate my mind just wonders i guess i better go hope to hear from someone!!