I blame everything on myself. And a lot of the time I hate myself. But every once in a while I say F%$#& it! This is me, there is only so much self improvement a person can do, and if people don't like it then they're not worth my time. And it's not always my fault. I can't control everything. Those moments keep me going.
I don't know if anything i typed is relevant to you, but
try not to be too hard on yourself..
and like everyone said, keep posting!