everything is falling apart. my life is *****. all i have left is my anger and hate. they have always been with me, protecting me from the world. whenever i fool myself into thinking that i am happy i sink even further into darkness. i dont see what the point of trying anymore. i cant stand to be around anybody. i dont want to see my friends or my family anymore because i'll probably grow to hate them as well. i really just want to disappear and never come back.