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Originally Posted by AniManiac
It's really doing a number on my self-confidence to be so cognitively screwed up. Academic work is hard under the best circumstances, and these aren't that. I spent 3 months last winter unable to do anything on my dissertation, and I desperately want to avoid that happening again. At this point, I don't even know how I work - because previously, I wouldn't work when depressed but would more than make up for it when hypomanic, so I ended up just waiting for the hypomania to kick in and then I'd get everything done. And then some. With the meds, I can't count on that saving grace, so now I'm terrified that I won't be able to keep up. I'm already well behind on my writing timeline, but I just have to keep trying and hope it works out.  |
Don't tell me... I completely understand. I think I did nothing for like a year - I was getting letters and calls from my supervisor saying he expected to see something (not unreasonably). The thing is, I was on a merit-based scholarship, and the guy in charge of it finally wrote to me saying they couldn't pay me any more.
Oddly enough, I was more or less able to continue teaching classes - but zero research.
Wouldn't someone have complained by now if there was really an issue? Or are they not that close to your work? Maybe they just expect to see the final result on time.
Can you ask for an extension, or anything like that (I'm in Europe - don't really know the system in US)?
As for cognitively impaired... I feel like I can't do anything right in work - getting into more and more pickles because of it. As you say - it is not the best for confidence.
I hope you start to feel better soon AniManiac.