It sounds like anxiety to me, from not having experiences growing up that could help you with your life now (that is what I had). If we don't learn to make friends and get along with people growing up, life seems to be much harder. I lived in my own little world until I was in my mid-30's and it took a lot of psychotherapy to help me become more comfortable with myself and how I interacted in the world with others so I wasn't as anxious or likely to be disappointed because I was dreaming instead of doing so not much changed for me, and I'd end up depressed.