What personality

I have been depressed like 4 times in the past 10yrs, I dont seem to enjoy things and be positive when i am not on medications, i find some reason or the other to be unhappy and not to enjoy life, i have been like this all my life, looking back i was probably depressed as a child as well, i have very few close friends, i lived with my parents till I was 26, but past 8 yrs living abroad in a different country, which was not a plesant experience, married 3yrs ago but now divorced, professionally and financially i am doing ok. Now back on antidperessants, the problem with me my short temper and avoidance of situations and people who make me uncomfortable, i go into a shell, i have lived as a loner for most part of the 8yrs avoiding friends who dont agree with me.
I dont know what sort of personality mine is, i keep thinking about what other people think about me. My ex wife had once told me that i am psycho, now after the divorce i am starring to wonder if i am really a psycho with some sort of personality and adjustment disorder.I think too much, dream of things and want things done in a certain way and when things dont go as i planned i get depressed. I fear the future and escape from my responsibilities, i avoided getting into a relationship due to various reasons including the responsiblity that come with it like children. my sister has told me several times that i am not responsible so has my ex wife. i am totally confused. I am in a high earning job but progress has been slow due to my mental health problems, but i am almost at the verge of reaching the top of the ladder professionally. I feel most comfortable in the confines of my home and that too alone. I havent me a pdoc yet, but planning meet one soon.
any one has any views about me?.

It's hard to judge the personality of a depressed person because depression utterly changes the personality. You should consult a psychiatrist to come back to your originality.
From certain aspects it seems that you are an idealist by nature. Creative person who hold high standards for relationships and personal integrity and when you don't find them up to the standard, it depresses you. You don't tolerate confrontation because you put up angry barriers among people.
It seems that you've got high potential to success in your relations and professional life so don't let it get wasted because of your depression.
Wish you good luck!

It sounds like anxiety to me, from not having experiences growing up that could help you with your life now (that is what I had). If we don't learn to make friends and get along with people growing up, life seems to be much harder. I lived in my own little world until I was in my mid-30's and it took a lot of psychotherapy to help me become more comfortable with myself and how I interacted in the world with others so I wasn't as anxious or likely to be disappointed because I was dreaming instead of doing so not much changed for me, and I'd end up depressed.