I feel a combination, or all, of the following: nothing, guilt, sadness, indifference.

And since my reality does not change, I think it is normal to feel like this. I don't consciously think 'I'm depressed' because I don't know that I could feel any other way. Until someone else tells me (I'm notoriously bad at spotting it myself - I need to improve).

I am aware of the 'good' things but don't care. They're not 'good' for me so - so what? I feel like I am not made for this world so it is irrelevant if there are good things in it. I also usually feel like I am invisible and don't really exist - a hole.

I am not even aware of feeling 'bad' necessarily - it just 'is'.