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dearest noneedtoknow,
btw, love your pseudonym. seriously though, your mental health issues do not seem stupid, small, or insignificant", rather you sit in the owner's box at the field of personal mental health issues. you are the equivalent to a person who is a sibling of alcoholism or some other dependency issue, but neither you, nor your brother have dependency issues as he is mentally ill with a very different form of mental illness than dependency illness. you live your life as a hostage to your brother's well being and mental stability. this mut be torture. I have a brother with dependency issues where my brother has accountability to abstain from various behaviors. You are in a situation where you are dealing with the unpredictability of your brother's brain which cannot be surrendered to as opposed to a drug or particular behavior. Granted, your brother may have issues not seeing a doctor or not taking meds...I don't know. It sure sounds like he should have been on medication based on your knowledge of his past problems, etc.

Well, all I really wanted to say you are like anyone else here living with mental illness whether by cause or effect. You are effected by your brother. I hope you feel welcome and safe to share here any time about any thing. I will add your brother and your whole family to my prayer list. I hope you are not waiting long for a call you want to hear. I empathize with the utter helplessness and sadness that may lay in your heart. Please feel free to send me a private message anytime. I am so sorry you have to live this way. it is a long and windy road. I wish you all the Blessings you ask for yourself.

take care and be well,
Sloane