I guess I just have to quit yearning for love and affection. I don't think it's ever coming the way I need it to.

No boyfriend can fill the void, my kid can't fill the void (of wanting love from an adult), so, I'm just screwed.

I would really like to be someone's someone special. I hear people talk about how they love so-and-so and they would never let anything happen to whoever...NO ONE says that about me. Like everyone's day continues as normal whether they see me or not. I would also like to have someone I can at least talk to about things, but no one wants to listen to me either. It's really hurtful. I'm an emotional girl, I love affection, but I just can't get it. I can't make any one do it. It just hurts a lot. I don't want to become numb, but I'm tired of crying and feeling like a piece of s**t on a daily basis.

I can't believe that I'll be 28 Thursday and have not run into ANYONE that I can be close with. A surrogate family member, a new friend...NOTHING!