Is this a medical or a psychiatric doctor doing the med-sorting? And you're not seeing your T because of the doctor--so you've been changing drugs around for several months? It doesn't sound as if your doctor and therapist work together. Am I right?

You really need to be getting on with your therapy. Skipping a week or two to tweak meds might make sense, but going several months without therapy may explain in large part what you're suffering now. Further, to have your meds constantly changed on you over a period of months is not something our systems can usually tolerate. This alone could account for your being a bundle of tears.