hey silver- i can relate a little to your post here. often cry when so angry. i've personally have an odd patern with it all right now. had issues with it then a time period of not to be violent but yet over time as in now i'm hittin doors again. i know my t has told me anger is a warning sign. To try to take it as that and not go to the one extreme or the other ie depression or rage. some how to stay in the annoyed grey area and take a step back then come back and resolve the issue. very hard to do in some areas in my life in the present. i seem to do it well with only my boyfriend cuz we talk a lot and even if months or a few hours after we do resolve or find a solution or more so me saying what's on my mind in a calmer manner. still a work in progress with other people and work. not sure about past issues to which i still hold anger and depression with along with confusion. some to which i don't know which is which . i hope you well.