I feel as though I'm just drifting away from people. To the point one of my 'friends' told me she was moving away and then earlier today she said she wasn't really moving away. I had just dealt with the loss of her, and now I don't know if I'll be able to trust her again.

My best 'friend' moved away in October 2010, she still went to the same school as me so I was able to speak to her regularly until May 2011 when my year group broke up for study leave. I haven't talked to her since September and she promised that she'd talk to me at least twice a week. Now I'm the last to find out any news about her and she doesn't even want me around.

I can't seem to trust myself to trust anyone because they just keep leaving. It makes me feel so alone, and so down all the time. To feel as though you can't talk to anyone about anything because they'll just betray you at some point or another. I have a feeling if I told anyone professional about this then they'd just go 'Oh! That's your self esteem taking. You're not actually alone.'

Thing is I am.