Particularly if you are sincerely religious, you have an obligation to stay here and make the best of it. Life is a magnificent gift, and self-termination is considered by many people to be wrong.

Yes, many of us, including myself, have such thoughts and desires from time to time. But there's a big difference between such thoughts and desires on the one hand and acting on them on the other.

Don't act on them. That's not good for anyone concerned. Explore them with a trained T. Find out from T how to undo them. Reconcile yourself with the wonders of life here on earth. And keep in mind that we're only here for a very short time, however long we try to survive.

Heaven's a lovely place. You'll be glad when you get there. But if you try to get there before it's your time, the results won't be happy. Sorry, but that's the truth.

Try to make the best of it down here. There are many people who can help you do that. Take advantage of them. And take care.