Hi Chandler - First of all - Merry Christmas. And sorry that you're not where you wish to be for Christmas. Hopefully there is some way for you to create a pleasant time for yourself - have something good to eat. Hoping for you to soon have that home time. If you're feeling depressed, then I hope that you have some strategies to help alleviate this, so that you can get beyond it, and look forward to happy times. Please take care.