One thing that my therapist keeps 'harping' on is PEACE. She says that I don't have real peace. I don't know what that looks like, so how do I know if I have it or not? I guess if I had it, I wouldn't be asking this question would I?

Who can live in real peace? I mean, when you have a mental illness, can you really live in peace? I never know when my bipolar symptoms will come up. I can tell you that I am NOT living in a state of peace when that happens. No matter how much I want to be, I am not. I am a mess! I can try to work through it until it passes, but when that is going on, I am not at peace with myself at all.