Squiggles and Bluemountains
Off course your T has other clients but it does sound like when you are with her YOU have her undivided attention and her efforts to help you understand peace is because peace relates to being neutral and open with your emotions which sets the stage for therapy to work. It is not easy and it is going to take as long as it takes, meaning you have to be open and honest with your T. This doesn't mean you have to expell everything if you are not ready to, but inform her that there are other thing going on that your not ready to talk about, she will understand and make note of it and doing this will also help both you and T trust eachother. If you have trust issues, tell her that, that would be most beneficial.
Ps. there aren't many things you can tell a T that they haven't heard before. I have been in therapy for over a decade with same Phsychologist and my Primary Care doctor even longer and worked with a few Phsychiatrist. Don't give up! You are not alone.Peace will come, there is a stratgegy to achiving it but just as any emotion isn't permanent you have to be aware to maintain it.
Sincerely,
Happiedasiy
Peace by pieces of insight