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Originally Posted by JustWannaDisappear
I seem to only post in this forum when I'm having a hard time. So sorry in advance for constantly complaining.
I'm not depressed, lamictal is the one drug that has actually helped. That said, I can't shake these thoughts that I am an awful person. I don't know how to verbalize (or write down) what's going on in my head. It's too scary. Other than this place I don't tell anyone how I feel. I hear from my husband and T that I'm too hard on myself. I think, total BS I'm not hard enough.
I'm really really struggling with my son. He's three and I honestly think he hates me. My husband and T say he's three he doesn't know HOW to hate. Than WHY WHY WHY does he meltdown, kick, bite and scratch ONLY me?! Yeah so I'm the safety parent. I get that. But when I pick him up from somewhere or walk in the door and I'm greeted with a a full on screaming meltdown, what else am I suppose to think?!
I wish I could just tell my T this and have her acknowledge how much this affects me. Someone took my appointment time AGAIN this week. I really really need her but am not going to be needy. I'm stubborn and need to get through this on my own but I wish I didn't have to.  |
(((JWD)))
I've been there and 3 is a tough year! Probably the reason why your son behaves the way he does with you is that you're the mom, and he is most comfortable with you. He knows that you love him unconditionally, and he knows that you are the one he can have meltdowns with.
Your t should be able to provide strategies to help you in dealing with your son's behavior as well as training his behavior to be more positive. If she is not trained to do so, then perhaps you need to ask your t for a reference in order to find someone who is trained to help you.
When you are able to tell your t how you feel about the appointment changes, she will be able to help you in dealing with this. Also, we all wish we could get through our problems on our own, and maybe one day we will, but for now, that is what therapy is for!
Peace!
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