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Originally Posted by madisgram
beauflow  i forgot one thing so doubledipping... 
it's suggested by professionals that the age we begin to abuse drugs or alcohol stunts our emotional growth. meaning say i started at 14. my emotional growth would be curtailed at 14 even tho-i wish  -i might be 30.
can't tell you how many ppl i know who get clean/sober have this phenomenon. i recall thinking in early sobriety oh darn i've got to grow up to be able to stay sober. i didn't know if i could do it!!
my post here may be off topic, idk, but thought i'd share that info in case it may help. |
Madisgram you are fine to put that here
- Perhaps that is part of it as well-- I think my topic is vague though or it has too much put into it- I think even I am confused on it
My dad use to always say that (that you are stuck in the mind set of the age that you started drug use; ie. the emotional growth as you are saying) to me and my one brother-- I do find it true too as well-
- though I get confused at times with myself; for I did not start heavy into drugs till 17 or 18 and yet at times I feel younger than that at times- like 12 or 13 or even dare say a child
that may have to do with something else though or Intertwined with the past drug abuse and ptsd but idk. Or maybe just the fact that I was not allowed to go out (very sheltered childhood and teenager years due to mom) but idk, I know that had to put an effect on me as well and perhaps I was not a "regular" kid of the ages..
I felt more confident at 17 than I do at 25 though (that is not something that stuck around)- that is something that I miss, for I had to build that from about 14-17 and now have lost it; and realize I messed up with what happened around 20-22 really took a blow to me and the heavy drug use I don't think helped at all-
sigh-- I know it is hard to keep the kid at bay with wants, it is severally hard, but I think I can tell my kid self- go play with paint instead