Jeez it's like 5 in the morning i just woke up in dread. This is what happens to me. I wake up feeling hopeless with my stomach cringing. I reached out a little bit to my sister an she blew me off. I am completely alone. I just wanted to talk to her, I honestly feel like she doesn't want to hear it. Like she thinks I'm just whining. Idk. It hurts though. My life just seems to be hurt after hurt after hurt, a never ending cycle. Again, why, what's the point? This is the lowest I have ever been in my life and I have had some really low points.