okay so I have my first class for tafe in a bit over an hour. this is the first time I've been anywhere to study after dropping out in 2009.
yesterday I went in to talk to the coordinator and he was so rude and grumpy I ended up crying in the toilets and I haven't even started classes yet. this is a horrible start.
I am meant to see the disability support lady Thursday but I don't want to because I'm too embarrassed because my DBT T got me to call her yesterday after I was so upset by the coordinator and she didn't know what to do. and I was making no sense.
I can't call my T because I took up WAY too much of her time yesterday and I think she's coming to my pdoc appt this afternoon.
I know that I would let soo many people down by not going today. so I'm trying to make myself go.
but I don't want to. I want to curl up in bed and die.
I dont know what to do..
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