Oh wow, I am not doing so good. I'm just pathetic, I'm crying and I have no reason to feel this way! There is no reason for me to feel like this; I think I have a relatively good life, and I read other people's stories and it's like everyone else has a reason. I have no excuse, and I hate myself for being so whiny and pathetic. I always pray for something to happen to change things, but I know nothing is going to happen, and for some reason I can't change things myself. I just want to sit out the rest of my life in a corner, away from everything. I feel so selfish and stupid. I feel bad about typing this because it feels like I'm wasting everyone else's time. I don't know why I put on a happy face for everyone else, I wish I could stop so people would know, but I have no reason, and so people will just think I'm being dramatic. Idk, maybe I am. But I hope not. I really, really hope not. I feel like I'm losing my mind