I carn't cope everything is getting on top of me. I dont know what to do . I dont get any support from mental health. or from my husband. so I have no one else. what am I supposed to do. I carn't do anything right I'm always wrong. everything I try to do I fail at. I'm sick to death with struggling to live a somewhat normal existance. I just want to crawl under a rock and hide away from the world so I dont get hurt over and over again.but I carn't because my husband and other people always depend on me for everything . dont they realise that I'm not some kind of superwoman. I want to be able to help others but I carn't even help myself most of the time. my life is not my own. I want a life I want my own life back the way it was before my illness(whatever that is) according to mental health after 17 years of being treated for schizopherina they have decided to change my diagnosis to boarderline personality disorder/depression without even discussing it with me or any of my family. they told me that I no longer have a mental illness and they dont have to treat me or offer me any help. even though I still have the same symptoms as I did when I was first diagnosed. and I'm still on anti psycotic medications. WHO THE HELL HAS THE PROBLEM !!! what am I supposed to do. I carn't fight the system I've tried and it didn't help. sorry to go on like this but I have other way to vent my hurt and frustration.