I think my depression is getting worse and worse. Really I'm just waiting for someone to pull me out of my rut, give me a job, etc. But even then I have no energy to do anything but be a robot for the rest of my life.
I am filled with regret and indecision at the same time, meaning I recognize missed opportunities in the past but i have no motivation or momentum going to try and make up for them. And that just makes me more depressed.
I am trapped in an employment agency that I don't want to be in. It's an agency for disabled types, my disability being my mental problems, and I can't change agencies for some reason. Feeling trapped and unable to make decisions is frustrating, and it means more depression.
More later.